Night of January 30th

I went to Sarina and Tim's for a little get together. Their apt was different and we kept walking around and Sarina was showing me different stuff. Then Melissa S. said she had to take the train back to her house so I said I would drop her off since I was leaving. But when we walked outside the train station was right there, and her car was on the track, and she said to not worry about it and that she'll get it tomorrow.

Then Joe came over. I remember him walking in the house. He was wearing a pin stripped jacked and baggier jeans than normal. We went upstairs to talk because we havent seen each other in so long. He was lounging on my bed and I kept changing my shirts in front of him. I kept putting on 2 different Spice Girl shirts. Sam and Liss would come in and out as well. Then Joe started crying cause he missed me and said it was too hard to be friends. He talked about how he saw Anthony and Anthony told him to watch out. It felt really awkward though and un- fulfilling to see him.

Next dream I remember was I was in a petstore but it was whole foods. It was absolutely huge and could not find this one kind of chinchilla food. I talked to a guy that worked there and he was holding the softest chinchilla I have ever touched. I was asking him about Lily's fur and how it was matted. I looked all over the store for chinchilla food and could not find it. I kept ending back in the employee area and running into the same girl, who I have definitely seen before at a department store. I then walked by all these caged dogs and noticed 2 boston terriers.

Another dream I slightly remember is watching some event really high up almost in a parking garage and sitting next to Anthony. I didn't see Ants face, and he felt different but it was him.

*Thank you sweet potatoes*

Night of January 27th

It's a little fuzzy, but I remember that I was working in some kind of school program and it was running into late hours of the night. We were at a house waiting to be released and no one could figure out the time. The kitchen said 4:58am, and the real time ended up being 1:33am. Then I was in a hall with Anthony looking after all these kids. We were chaperones. There was a little girl with blonde hair that sat on my lap and told Anthony a story. Then we were wondering when we would be able to leave because it was the middle of the night. In the room, the final attraction was this rope set up, almost like a clothes line, and a toy bicycle rode across it with either a hamster in it or a stuffed animal. When we were able to leave I drove home and couldn't find a spot and there were mis -understandings about cars with Anthony. I then was supposed to meet him at this fancy restaurant but didn't want to drive home from the city by myself.

*This seems to be a common theme: not wanting to drive home from the city. In my dreams I get really anxious about it and it's nerve-wrecking. *

Night of January 24th

It was a restless night so my dreams kept getting interrupted, but one I remember is seeing Stephanie Pinga. She was over and we were in my room and I haven't seen her in a very long time. She brought over a bunch of old pictures, and all the pictures she showed me I did not remember any of them being taken. Anthony was in a bunch, and I didn't even know she had met him. She seemed really jealous and mad about me dating him. I remember her saying "It's a good thing he's going away to college in the fall, that way I can have you as a friend all to myself!" I then told her that we were both moving to Brooklyn together. She wasn't very happy.

Night of January 23rd

It was New Years eve and I was with Lauren Mollo, Krista and Andrew and we were at a hotel. In the hotel was a Tommy's Place. I was wearing a really cool plaid shirt and good fitting jeans. We sat at this table with these guys that we went to high school with, who we never really liked. I couldn't decide on what to drink, so Andrew and I decided to go to the bar and decide. The bar was upstairs from the lounge and Tommy's was all decorated and really fancy. It was after 12am at this point and no one was in the bar. We were really confused because it was New Years and everyone had left. Krista then came and we stole these glasses of wine. There were a bunch of different shaped glasses and kinds. The wine I had was frothy and creme colored. The wine was so tart that I woke up with the taste in my mouth.

Another part of a dream I remember was I was either in this hotel or in a school, and I saw my ex Joe walk in and I quickly turned away and ran.

Night of January 22nd

I was going to see a Dr. Seuss movie in this really big theater. I was going with Jameson. I noticed everyone in the theater was sitting next to each other really close. Everyone was cuddling, so it was socially acceptable to cuddle, regardless if you were a couple or not. So me and Jameson were sitting close like that and I noticed it and felt weird because of Anthony, but at the same time there were no feelings about it, besides the fact that it was a social thing.

Night of January 21st

All my dreams made me feel like I was out of my element. I was in my house sitting on the couch and Anthony walked in wearing a really ugly outfit. It wasn't ugly necessarily, but to me it was out-dated and made me un-attracted to him. He was wearing an anime green t-shirt and a blue checked button down that was wrinkled and he wore it open. He was really excited that he got the shirt in some kind of giveaway and John was upset that he didn't get it. I didn't tell him I didn't like it, I just said he should wear a white tee underneath. Then we sat at a computer with some dude, and he told us to pay attention to this weird video game he was playing. All of a sudden this robotic dinosaur pops up and is about to eat something and then we see it running in the game looking for food, but it was a close up.

Dream #2

I was at some party and it was a baby shower. I really do not know who the person was, but I remember carrying the presents into the house and boxes kept falling. As I was walking into the house Laurie called my phone and I thought it was weird cause I was at a formal event. I remember an argument going on and the dream ended as I walked onto this beach, and the water was clear and beautiful.

Night of January 20th

It was a busy night in dreamville.

Dream #1

I dreamt that I was staying in my aunts house in NC. I then got a phone call from my dad telling me that he bought this really big house in NC. (I went to this house over the summer in real life and it was so kick ass). I kept telling him how I was so excited to have the room on the end upstairs with my own bathroom, and then argued with him that Sam would have her room be the open space at the top of the staircase that isn't really a room. It's like a hangout spot, or a game spot. I then texted Anthony saying I couldn't wait to move into my ballin house.

Dream#2

Mom, Sam and I were driving home from an event, maybe a wedding, I'm not sure it's fuzzy, but she decided she was going to drive. (Mom doesn't like to drive on expressways in real life) and she didn't like to in my dream either. So she took this extremely long way to get home which turned out to be driving up this huge steep cliff with huge huge huge crashing waves against it. They were beautiful blue but scary as hell. I didn't understand why mom didn't think this was scary, but driving on the expressway was scary. We ended up making it down okay but I questioned her as we were going down.

Dream #3

Probably one of the hottest sex dreams I've had in awhile. A long sex session in the shower with Anthony.

Dream#4

I was signed up for a summer camp with Sam and 2 others who I'm not sure who they were. We were supposed to be picked up to go to this beach to go swimming. Nobody ends up picking us up so we have to drive ourselves. As I'm leaving my house I notice on the counter 2 vases with flowers laying next to them, most likely fake because everything was drying on paper towel as if they have been washed. So we get in the car, I'm driving and we're following directions on an iphone gps. I keep reading the directions and how were going to be late. As this is happening a close up of the gps map comes in and out of the frame almost if this was shot like a film, and this would show travel time. We then decide that by the time we get to the beach, camp will be over and there's no point in trying to get there. Sam then explains to me that were only signed up on Mondays for camp, so we decide that we are not going to go. I remember saying "Screw that"!

*I ate sweet potato fries before bed. A lot of the times when I eat sweet potatoes I either have trippy dreams or very detailed dreams*

Night of January 19th

I was going to a Halloween party and I was going to be a female Indiana Jones. A bunch of us were going to sneak into this place..but then all of a sudden a bunch of girls were going to shower all at once in my moms shower. I was waiting on line and I talked to this girl about Passion Pit and Trajedy. Then they got naked and Krista had ruby nipples. I decided that I didn't want to shower with them so I went into my room.

Night of January 18th

I was traveling with Krista and Justin and we went to Montreal. We decided to take a day trip by taking a ferry to this town in Canada with a weird name. The town sucked and we were really disappointed because we couldn't find anything to do and there was no where to eat either.

I also remember TJ being in another dream.

Night of January 17th

I was on a hunt to find Egyptian artifacts with Anthony, Amy and Jameson. We needed one last part, and Jamo ended up having it and he hid it from us. This girl from his school apparently found it and gave it to him. My feet were also orange, like residue from Cheetos. Then I was on a train going somewhere and Victoria was singing and kept getting off the train and coming back on. Then I sat next to Melissa and talked about showers and how her little sister Nicole wanted to go into TV production.

*WTF?!*

Night of January 15th

I was in the city with a bunch of people and we just got out of a show. It was late and we all drove in with someone and were waiting for our cars to get out of the parking garage. My partner, Blane, decided he was going to leave without me and I would have to drive home from the city. I got really worried and anxious because I've never driven in the city and I had to find directions home. Once I got home, Andrew came in wearing black slacks, a lavender button down and dress shoes and wanted to know if I was ready for the diner. Then he said he would meet me there and that we shouldn't car pool.

*Did an experiment of eating pb&chocolate before bed again to see if it would cause a stressful dream. I guess it was pretty stressful*

Night of January 14th

What a stressful night of dreams!

So the beginning of my dream everything was like how it was in real life. Happy and go-lucky. Anthony then talks to his cousin Zach and decides he is going to move down to Fl for a semester to finish school. It was a really sudden quick decision and I got really upset, and Anthony did not really seem to mind. He said that we were going to keep dating and make it work and that he would come visit for valentines and my birthday, but as the time went on he seemed to care less and less. On the day that he left, he barely said good-bye. When he got down there, he didn't answer my messages or calls. I then was able to view a note that he wrote that either was sent over the internet or what, but it was on sketch paper in black ink. It said:

" I'm bored and at work. I'm not really going to use my iphone while in FL. Except I love Amanda's voice. (Then an email was written, I dont remember it) So I will talk to her. Still bored"

I then was really hurt, and he was coming home for the weekend and I texted him to see if I could see him but did not hear from him.

While all this was happening I had to babysit for an asian family. They were not clear on what times they needed me. They gave a me a list of things and drawings on looseleaf. They listed food, and belief systems. They gave me money for salad as well. Then I had to go pick up the family I babysit for in real life but I had to park really far away and forgot the car seats and my mom was in the car driving. We started screaming at each other and then she started crying because she was stressed.

There was another part in the dream where I dont know when it happened but Joe my ex walked into my house, and me, mom and Anthony were sitting at the table. He walked in with saying " I'm sorry" and saying other things without ever looking at us. Mom and me then talked about how weird it was and Anthony defended him.

*I ate chocolate and peanut butter before bed*

Night of January 13th

I had to attend two funerals. I believe that my dad died again and that is why I was really upset. The funeral I attended was some kid named Travis, and it was in a church. I went into one room of the church where there were a bunch of candles and a fainting couch, and Nick Antz's mom was in there. I talked to her about funerals and death and then we decided to join everyone else. A bunch of kids put together a memorial video of Travis and a girl with blonde hair spoke about him.

Night of January 12th

It was night time, and I was going to this racquetball place to meet Anthony to play. I entered the gym and paid $38.00, and then realized that Anthony could have meant to meet him at his clubhouse to play. I texted him on my phone, which was an iphone, but he never answered. The lady at the desk told me to go down the long hallway till i reached the rock wall, those were where the courts were. So I went into a big room with tons of bicycles, and there were no other rooms to go to. I started talking to this girl Caitlin I used to know, and I was eating a huge plate of vegetables and could not get stuffed. I then decided I should workout since I was there.

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Next dream I remember is watching a competition of kids jumping really high with cords attached to them.

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Another part of a dream, I was going to get laser hair removal around my eyebrows. It cost $50 for each little section.

Dream blog

This was created to document my crazy dreams that I have.

Comment if you wish, analyze if you'd like.

Night of January 11th

I was in a room, I'm guessing it was Anthony's, it was light out and the room was the size of mine. We were hanging out, just us and an old friend of mine, Amber. We were going to smoke and Anthony was telling us how he is not addicted and doesn't have a temper. Then the wall shook from a fist punching it, and it was Anthony's dad screaming " WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?! YOU HAVE A TEMPER" We all got really silent and then Anthony's brother Jeff came in, except he was like 8 or 9 years old. He was really scared. We then started talking about Ant's mom and he said that she has her own weed and he can't wait to smoke with her.

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The next dream I remember was that I was in a car driving somewhere..and it was raining, and there were a lot of green trees everywhere. I saw Michael and his mom Doreen and we were talking about getting Greek on Thursday.