Night of November 8th

I was with a group of people and we were all gearing up to go on hang on the ceiling to play the drums. Anthony's cousins, Matt & Kim were there and they were telling us how un happy they were and Kim was really depressed. Krista was there too, and she was asked to take Matt's daughter to the farm festival, because he wanted to lift me up so i could go on the ceiling to play the drums.

I then was hanging out with freddie from icarly. I kept calling him johnny because i didn't know his real name, but apparently he wanted to date me. I then decided to date him and he got really happy. I tried looking up his age, but Matt Parody assured me that he was old enough, and even if he wasn't it didn't matter because he was a vegetarian.

Night of June 8th

I was in North Carolina visiting my two cousins, their husbands and their kids. We were outside eating and just talking about nothing really specific. Then it was time to do the dishes, and Denise basically made me do them. I didn't have a choice. I then remember being in a room, it was quite large and had a walk in closet that was all mirrors. It was Andrew's place and we were talking about going out to Billies. I was wearing a gray skirt, black teeshirt and my hair pulled back. I walked in front of the closet with all the mirrors like I was modeling. I told Andrew that we needed to make a film with this closet and the mirrors. Andrew then told me that I looked really "Fiiiine"

Night of June 7th

I was sharing an apartment with Kevin Fusco. It was really small from the outside but when you walked in it was much much bigger. I barely had any of my stuff and my bed was on the floor. I then had class at Tech and drove Anthony's car to Kristas on break. Mom and Sam went and we talked to Trish for awhile and it was raining out. I then had to go back to class and didn't know how to get back to class from Kristas, and she didn't either. So I decided to leave with mom and leave the car at Kristas so I could later bring Anthony to get it. I then went back to my apt. and Nick P was there and wanted to plan a party on Thursday night. It was a fundraiser and for a good cause, but I was already planning a party at my old house on Thursday. Nick wanted me to be his DD for the party at the apt. I then leave and come back to my apt, and the party is huge, and everything is trashed. I go to my room, which is just on a landing now, and there is a tiger, running lose, and I'm really scared of how to get him out. I then go outside and the red head from Modern Family is walking Curley, the dog I take care. He tells me that Curly isn't his name anymore, its Luie, and that the tiger now belongs to the owner of Luie and he's been looking for the tiger.

Night of March 10th

I was asleep and Anthony got up to put the bird in another room because he was being too loud. Instead of coming back to bed, he left and I didn't understand why. I texted him but he didn't really answer. There was also snow outside. Kyle and Ilissa were here and they were sleeping on the couches.

I then dreamt that I was in some house in a living room. There was a small television and some random people watching a movie. Amy was there and she went into the bathroom, sat on the sink and peed sideways and made it into the toilet. She called it her trick, except that it didn't really work and I made her clean up her mess because it was gross. She then fell asleep on one of the couches.

Next dream included a house party. Jamo was there and we were going to smoke some weed out of a tube. I ended up going home to check on mom and had 12 missed calls from him and Andrew. The party had a lot of mixed drinks too, and it was a summer backyard party.

Night of February 21st

In no specific order:

It was a Monday night, Ilissa was over and I was waiting to talk to Anthony when he got off work. My mom came into my room and told me to start packing because we were going to NC tomorrow at 8am. I totally freaked out because I had casting to do and babysitting during the week and didn't tell them ahead of time. Then I had no pet sitter so I was hoping Anthony would do it. And I remember telling him that we needed to video chat while I was away.

I then was in the city going out with kids from Suffolk. Amy, her friends from school and Mallory Bersamira was there. We were all talking and decided that I was going to go to a bar on LI to meet up with some kids. All of a sudden Amy and her friends get up and run to leave and I follow them. They didnt want to pay the check and expected us to. I felt so bad and knew that karma was going to hit me. Then Mallory turned into Melissa S. and we were walking around and went to this weird pet store with really weird looking fish and animals. It was really really small too. We then head for the train which was going to Syosset, and I couldn't find my train ticket which automatically made me think of karma and not paying the bill. I then told Melissa how she was in my dream another time with trains.

We then got to LI and saw Sarina and Matt in the parking lot and I was hoping Anthony would come pick me up.

Night of February 14th

I was discussing a podcast meeting with Frank. Ricky, Andrew and Anthony and we were in a pool, but the further you got in the pool the more it looked like an ocean. It was really pretty and cool. There was a giant rock in the middle of it. Anyway, we would be discussing story segments and then we would act them out. One of them involved a black french bulldog swimming in the pool. Then we were discussing a museum and Anthony was looking this mannequin of this cowboy and there was a beer cooler, like how a big water cooler would be set up. Sam appeared and took a glass of beer and poured it in her hair to cool herself off. Then this guy yelled at Sam for wasting the beer and she had to give him the glass. Then the dream shot back to us swimming in the pool and a door bell rang so I had to get out of the pool and get the door. I was wearing a blue bathing suit.

Night of February 11th

I was working an overnight at some store, and Rick was there. I tried to sneak out but then I was in a classroom and was not allowed to leave early. The desks were set up in a circle and I was talking to some kid that went to NYIT. I was then watching a movie like Spiderman on my iphone and the teacher was reading off names, and then reading an attribute that people voted on to describe the person. I was hoping that the word funny was going to follow my name.

Night of February 8th

All of my dreams are kind of scattered but I'm pretty sure the first one had to do with being at home. I had a huge hot tub in my house that was in ground and black granite with red flower steps. It was inter changeable so that you can make it as deep as you wanted it to be. I was waiting for people to leave the room cause I just wanted to fool around with Anthony in it. Another part of my dream I remember is Matt and a school bus.

I was then in an elementary school and had to go to the bathroom. My teacher let me go but I didn't have a hall pass so the bathroom monitor would not let me in. She said to come back in 10 minutes and she might let me in. So I wandered around the school for 18 minutes and I remember feeling like the teacher was gonna yell at me cause it took me so long.

My next dream took place at my dads store. Every one of his old employees were there and they were all saying hi to me and saying that haven't seen me in so long. I also asked my dad for a new iphone case and he went crazy looking to see if he did. I then was knitting with some guys at the back of the store and they said that I seemed so happy and they didnt understand why I was so happy. Then a mailman who they were friends with came to the back of the store and took us for a ride, because he always does this after his shift. I then remember hanging out with Krista, Justin and Ant in the back of the store. We were talking and Krista said she was gonna smoke weed with Justin on Saturday and that it was her first time. I told her that it was cool and it's not a big deal it just get's old when people get addicted and I gave Anthony a look. He then flipped out on me, even though I was joking and told me he stopped smoking a couple of weeks ago because he got tired of it, and it was a waste of money.

Night of February 7th

I was at the shooting range and Andrew was wearing bright orange overalls and a red fluffy hat. It was really busy too and he had to go teach people to shoot. Then John told me this story about if he were to park on the other side of the street near this store he would have died because of the light pole that fell there. I got really emotional about this.

I then went to visit Kevin and Brittany at RDF but it was an insurance place. They wanted me to call some company for them, and then my sister came rushing in. She was telling us that she was famous from all the films she was in being an Extra. Passion Pit was playing in the background.

I then was at a house party or somewhere else and there were little kids that I needed to bring to the bathroom. I ended up losing them and then found on of the little girls drunk because she was drinking mikes hard.

Night of February 4th

I was at a house party and had the Droid as a phone. I was planning on hanging out with Joe and he was going to pick me up from the party. He arrived and he was in the backseat with five other people in the car and there clearly was no spot for me, so I was a little pissed off and told them that I would meet them at the restaurant. John Merhoff said to follow him, but then took off fast before I got to my car. I then got into a car with Sam and Andrew and we went looking for them.

I then remember being at Krista's house which was HUGE. 8 bathrooms and they were renovating so it was just getting bigger. We were then off to a school play and got into a car with these kids that could not drive and we almost crashed. We lost some Dvds and had to get copies of them. I then remember getting a text from Joe saying "I can't have you, so there's no point in hanging out" and then there were other parts to it that were very nonchalant.

Night of February 2nd

My setting switched between an apartment in the city and my current household. Anthony and I got into a huge fight. Tons of screaming, and I'm not sure why. Jameson and Krista kept appearing and then they would disappear. I was so livid and Anthony refused to leave the house. I kept asking him, and then would scream at him. I then called the cops and told them that I had a boyfriend that wouldn't leave. Anthony still would not get up. It was also night time which is the first time I've had a dream take place while it was dark out. The cops showed up and I told Anthony that they were here. Anthony then suggested we should go to bed, and thought we were done fighting and I told him that we were breaking up and that I couldn't take it anymore. He was so shocked he just got up and left and I had to tell the cops he was leaving.

I was then in the apartment filling the dish washer. Kino walked over to me and gave me his paw and it was really cute. I then got up and locked my front door. I double locked it and chain locked it and then went off into a bedroom.

Night of January 30th

I went to Sarina and Tim's for a little get together. Their apt was different and we kept walking around and Sarina was showing me different stuff. Then Melissa S. said she had to take the train back to her house so I said I would drop her off since I was leaving. But when we walked outside the train station was right there, and her car was on the track, and she said to not worry about it and that she'll get it tomorrow.

Then Joe came over. I remember him walking in the house. He was wearing a pin stripped jacked and baggier jeans than normal. We went upstairs to talk because we havent seen each other in so long. He was lounging on my bed and I kept changing my shirts in front of him. I kept putting on 2 different Spice Girl shirts. Sam and Liss would come in and out as well. Then Joe started crying cause he missed me and said it was too hard to be friends. He talked about how he saw Anthony and Anthony told him to watch out. It felt really awkward though and un- fulfilling to see him.

Next dream I remember was I was in a petstore but it was whole foods. It was absolutely huge and could not find this one kind of chinchilla food. I talked to a guy that worked there and he was holding the softest chinchilla I have ever touched. I was asking him about Lily's fur and how it was matted. I looked all over the store for chinchilla food and could not find it. I kept ending back in the employee area and running into the same girl, who I have definitely seen before at a department store. I then walked by all these caged dogs and noticed 2 boston terriers.

Another dream I slightly remember is watching some event really high up almost in a parking garage and sitting next to Anthony. I didn't see Ants face, and he felt different but it was him.

*Thank you sweet potatoes*

Night of January 27th

It's a little fuzzy, but I remember that I was working in some kind of school program and it was running into late hours of the night. We were at a house waiting to be released and no one could figure out the time. The kitchen said 4:58am, and the real time ended up being 1:33am. Then I was in a hall with Anthony looking after all these kids. We were chaperones. There was a little girl with blonde hair that sat on my lap and told Anthony a story. Then we were wondering when we would be able to leave because it was the middle of the night. In the room, the final attraction was this rope set up, almost like a clothes line, and a toy bicycle rode across it with either a hamster in it or a stuffed animal. When we were able to leave I drove home and couldn't find a spot and there were mis -understandings about cars with Anthony. I then was supposed to meet him at this fancy restaurant but didn't want to drive home from the city by myself.

*This seems to be a common theme: not wanting to drive home from the city. In my dreams I get really anxious about it and it's nerve-wrecking. *

Night of January 24th

It was a restless night so my dreams kept getting interrupted, but one I remember is seeing Stephanie Pinga. She was over and we were in my room and I haven't seen her in a very long time. She brought over a bunch of old pictures, and all the pictures she showed me I did not remember any of them being taken. Anthony was in a bunch, and I didn't even know she had met him. She seemed really jealous and mad about me dating him. I remember her saying "It's a good thing he's going away to college in the fall, that way I can have you as a friend all to myself!" I then told her that we were both moving to Brooklyn together. She wasn't very happy.

Night of January 23rd

It was New Years eve and I was with Lauren Mollo, Krista and Andrew and we were at a hotel. In the hotel was a Tommy's Place. I was wearing a really cool plaid shirt and good fitting jeans. We sat at this table with these guys that we went to high school with, who we never really liked. I couldn't decide on what to drink, so Andrew and I decided to go to the bar and decide. The bar was upstairs from the lounge and Tommy's was all decorated and really fancy. It was after 12am at this point and no one was in the bar. We were really confused because it was New Years and everyone had left. Krista then came and we stole these glasses of wine. There were a bunch of different shaped glasses and kinds. The wine I had was frothy and creme colored. The wine was so tart that I woke up with the taste in my mouth.

Another part of a dream I remember was I was either in this hotel or in a school, and I saw my ex Joe walk in and I quickly turned away and ran.

Night of January 22nd

I was going to see a Dr. Seuss movie in this really big theater. I was going with Jameson. I noticed everyone in the theater was sitting next to each other really close. Everyone was cuddling, so it was socially acceptable to cuddle, regardless if you were a couple or not. So me and Jameson were sitting close like that and I noticed it and felt weird because of Anthony, but at the same time there were no feelings about it, besides the fact that it was a social thing.

Night of January 21st

All my dreams made me feel like I was out of my element. I was in my house sitting on the couch and Anthony walked in wearing a really ugly outfit. It wasn't ugly necessarily, but to me it was out-dated and made me un-attracted to him. He was wearing an anime green t-shirt and a blue checked button down that was wrinkled and he wore it open. He was really excited that he got the shirt in some kind of giveaway and John was upset that he didn't get it. I didn't tell him I didn't like it, I just said he should wear a white tee underneath. Then we sat at a computer with some dude, and he told us to pay attention to this weird video game he was playing. All of a sudden this robotic dinosaur pops up and is about to eat something and then we see it running in the game looking for food, but it was a close up.

Dream #2

I was at some party and it was a baby shower. I really do not know who the person was, but I remember carrying the presents into the house and boxes kept falling. As I was walking into the house Laurie called my phone and I thought it was weird cause I was at a formal event. I remember an argument going on and the dream ended as I walked onto this beach, and the water was clear and beautiful.

Night of January 20th

It was a busy night in dreamville.

Dream #1

I dreamt that I was staying in my aunts house in NC. I then got a phone call from my dad telling me that he bought this really big house in NC. (I went to this house over the summer in real life and it was so kick ass). I kept telling him how I was so excited to have the room on the end upstairs with my own bathroom, and then argued with him that Sam would have her room be the open space at the top of the staircase that isn't really a room. It's like a hangout spot, or a game spot. I then texted Anthony saying I couldn't wait to move into my ballin house.

Dream#2

Mom, Sam and I were driving home from an event, maybe a wedding, I'm not sure it's fuzzy, but she decided she was going to drive. (Mom doesn't like to drive on expressways in real life) and she didn't like to in my dream either. So she took this extremely long way to get home which turned out to be driving up this huge steep cliff with huge huge huge crashing waves against it. They were beautiful blue but scary as hell. I didn't understand why mom didn't think this was scary, but driving on the expressway was scary. We ended up making it down okay but I questioned her as we were going down.

Dream #3

Probably one of the hottest sex dreams I've had in awhile. A long sex session in the shower with Anthony.

Dream#4

I was signed up for a summer camp with Sam and 2 others who I'm not sure who they were. We were supposed to be picked up to go to this beach to go swimming. Nobody ends up picking us up so we have to drive ourselves. As I'm leaving my house I notice on the counter 2 vases with flowers laying next to them, most likely fake because everything was drying on paper towel as if they have been washed. So we get in the car, I'm driving and we're following directions on an iphone gps. I keep reading the directions and how were going to be late. As this is happening a close up of the gps map comes in and out of the frame almost if this was shot like a film, and this would show travel time. We then decide that by the time we get to the beach, camp will be over and there's no point in trying to get there. Sam then explains to me that were only signed up on Mondays for camp, so we decide that we are not going to go. I remember saying "Screw that"!

*I ate sweet potato fries before bed. A lot of the times when I eat sweet potatoes I either have trippy dreams or very detailed dreams*

Night of January 19th

I was going to a Halloween party and I was going to be a female Indiana Jones. A bunch of us were going to sneak into this place..but then all of a sudden a bunch of girls were going to shower all at once in my moms shower. I was waiting on line and I talked to this girl about Passion Pit and Trajedy. Then they got naked and Krista had ruby nipples. I decided that I didn't want to shower with them so I went into my room.

Night of January 18th

I was traveling with Krista and Justin and we went to Montreal. We decided to take a day trip by taking a ferry to this town in Canada with a weird name. The town sucked and we were really disappointed because we couldn't find anything to do and there was no where to eat either.

I also remember TJ being in another dream.

Night of January 17th

I was on a hunt to find Egyptian artifacts with Anthony, Amy and Jameson. We needed one last part, and Jamo ended up having it and he hid it from us. This girl from his school apparently found it and gave it to him. My feet were also orange, like residue from Cheetos. Then I was on a train going somewhere and Victoria was singing and kept getting off the train and coming back on. Then I sat next to Melissa and talked about showers and how her little sister Nicole wanted to go into TV production.

*WTF?!*

Night of January 15th

I was in the city with a bunch of people and we just got out of a show. It was late and we all drove in with someone and were waiting for our cars to get out of the parking garage. My partner, Blane, decided he was going to leave without me and I would have to drive home from the city. I got really worried and anxious because I've never driven in the city and I had to find directions home. Once I got home, Andrew came in wearing black slacks, a lavender button down and dress shoes and wanted to know if I was ready for the diner. Then he said he would meet me there and that we shouldn't car pool.

*Did an experiment of eating pb&chocolate before bed again to see if it would cause a stressful dream. I guess it was pretty stressful*

Night of January 14th

What a stressful night of dreams!

So the beginning of my dream everything was like how it was in real life. Happy and go-lucky. Anthony then talks to his cousin Zach and decides he is going to move down to Fl for a semester to finish school. It was a really sudden quick decision and I got really upset, and Anthony did not really seem to mind. He said that we were going to keep dating and make it work and that he would come visit for valentines and my birthday, but as the time went on he seemed to care less and less. On the day that he left, he barely said good-bye. When he got down there, he didn't answer my messages or calls. I then was able to view a note that he wrote that either was sent over the internet or what, but it was on sketch paper in black ink. It said:

" I'm bored and at work. I'm not really going to use my iphone while in FL. Except I love Amanda's voice. (Then an email was written, I dont remember it) So I will talk to her. Still bored"

I then was really hurt, and he was coming home for the weekend and I texted him to see if I could see him but did not hear from him.

While all this was happening I had to babysit for an asian family. They were not clear on what times they needed me. They gave a me a list of things and drawings on looseleaf. They listed food, and belief systems. They gave me money for salad as well. Then I had to go pick up the family I babysit for in real life but I had to park really far away and forgot the car seats and my mom was in the car driving. We started screaming at each other and then she started crying because she was stressed.

There was another part in the dream where I dont know when it happened but Joe my ex walked into my house, and me, mom and Anthony were sitting at the table. He walked in with saying " I'm sorry" and saying other things without ever looking at us. Mom and me then talked about how weird it was and Anthony defended him.

*I ate chocolate and peanut butter before bed*

Night of January 13th

I had to attend two funerals. I believe that my dad died again and that is why I was really upset. The funeral I attended was some kid named Travis, and it was in a church. I went into one room of the church where there were a bunch of candles and a fainting couch, and Nick Antz's mom was in there. I talked to her about funerals and death and then we decided to join everyone else. A bunch of kids put together a memorial video of Travis and a girl with blonde hair spoke about him.

Night of January 12th

It was night time, and I was going to this racquetball place to meet Anthony to play. I entered the gym and paid $38.00, and then realized that Anthony could have meant to meet him at his clubhouse to play. I texted him on my phone, which was an iphone, but he never answered. The lady at the desk told me to go down the long hallway till i reached the rock wall, those were where the courts were. So I went into a big room with tons of bicycles, and there were no other rooms to go to. I started talking to this girl Caitlin I used to know, and I was eating a huge plate of vegetables and could not get stuffed. I then decided I should workout since I was there.

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Next dream I remember is watching a competition of kids jumping really high with cords attached to them.

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Another part of a dream, I was going to get laser hair removal around my eyebrows. It cost $50 for each little section.

Dream blog

This was created to document my crazy dreams that I have.

Comment if you wish, analyze if you'd like.

Night of January 11th

I was in a room, I'm guessing it was Anthony's, it was light out and the room was the size of mine. We were hanging out, just us and an old friend of mine, Amber. We were going to smoke and Anthony was telling us how he is not addicted and doesn't have a temper. Then the wall shook from a fist punching it, and it was Anthony's dad screaming " WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?! YOU HAVE A TEMPER" We all got really silent and then Anthony's brother Jeff came in, except he was like 8 or 9 years old. He was really scared. We then started talking about Ant's mom and he said that she has her own weed and he can't wait to smoke with her.

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The next dream I remember was that I was in a car driving somewhere..and it was raining, and there were a lot of green trees everywhere. I saw Michael and his mom Doreen and we were talking about getting Greek on Thursday.